I'm so sorry to hear you're having such a difficult time at the moment. As far as feeling like your on the edge of panicking goes, that could be because you've been (by the sounds of it) quite ill the last little while. You're body is desperately fighting your infection and so even if your mind is calm, your body will no doubt be releasing adrenaline and cortisol and all manner of other stress response hormones. If that's all that's driving your anxious feeling, the best thing is going to be helping your body fight and getting healthy again, which brings us to an odd dilemma. Normally the best thing to do to get better is to take the meds your doctor has given you and rest until they work, but if you're prone to severe reactions to medications, it is completely understandable that you would be very anxious taking anything new. I have a few questions regarding the circumstances, if you're willing to share, that may help me give you some advice: 1. Does the doctor who prescribed the antibiotics and cough medicine know about your other medication allergies? 2. When you have an allergic reaction to a medication, what symptoms do you tend to get? Are they the same for each medicine you react to? 3. If you've had one before, what symptoms do you get with your panic attacks? Are they the same each time?

I'm sorry you're going through that 😔 Is there a difference between you having an allergic reaction and having a panic attack? Maybe identifying that could help? I guess try taking some deep breaths or doing things you would enjoy. Anxiety can be hard to get through, and things that work for some people don't work for others. Is there anything that helps you when you feel anxious? If you seriously think you're having a reaction and it's not anxiety, go see a doctor! It's always better to be safe than sorry. (Also, the phrase you're looking for is teeter-totter! It's a piece of playground equipment that goes up and down!)