Just in general antidepressants don’t mesh well with bipolar. Unfortunately even though there is a lot of research out there that says it’s a bad idea a lot of clinicians still prescribe it. It can actually make a lot of people worse. I’d definitely make an appointment with your provider or a new one stop and stop taking the med in the meantime and see if you feel better. I looked at your profile and was SHOCKED that you were out on too antidepressants/anxiety meds without a mood stabilizer. Generally a really bad idea. In addition to my mood stabilizer I’ve been put on some antidepressants for sleep. Every time I went totally batshit. There are some mood stabilizers like mine (lamotrigine) than work primarily in depression rather than mania if depression is the bigger issue. I’m really sorry that you’ve had to go through this weird med situation.

Yea I feel like especially if you're type 1, its just a principle that antidepressants aren't going to work for you, and if you're going to take one you need to be on a mood stabilizer or antipsychotic cuz antidepressants alone can either psuh you into a manic episode or make your depression worse. My GD prescribed me antidepressants when I first got diagnosed and I felt the same thing, like I got really jittery and felt like I was on coke another thing to note is if you struggle with substance abuse it can become addictive, at least for me, coz it made me feel manic I started taking way more than I should've I was taking like 3 or 4 a day and just kept pushing me further into mania hopefully that helps and you find the right medication

If you're noticing a pattern that breaks your usual behaviour pattern definitely try and get someone to review your meds