That transitional period in life where you aren't sure what you want is always hard. I definitely relate. I'm trying to accept that exploring different options is ok and actually a good thing. You never know what the future will bring so explore as much as you can. And don't feel ashamed if schooling just isn't for you. Higher education is hard and I know pleanty of people who had to take a different path for the better. I know its hard but I'm rooting for you! :)