Honestly, I had trouble finding a creative outlet at first because I've got muscle, nerve and joint problems and am not the most coordinated with fine detail. I've had a lot of luck with performance arts; I was really big into theatre and drag when I was in college, and I think it's how I made it through my degree. After college, I got into the goth club scene in my city, and I discovered flow arts. You ever see someone swinging glowing poi balls, dancing with a light whip, or giving someone a light show with LED gloves? I got a few rave toys, like an orbit and a set of poi, and a pair of gloves. Ultimately, I found my flow in those gloves. There's something about flow space almost reminiscent of EMDR or meditation, where you can hit this groove where you feel like your lights are a direct extension of your own body and you feel the pulse and rhythm of the music as thought it's running through your veins. Just dancing with my gloves or even just practicing the hand movements while listening intently to my music is enough to help me relax and feel like I'm more in control of my thoughts. For me, there was even an added benefit in that, especially after about a year establishing myself as "that dude lighting up the dance floor with his magic fingertips," when people would come up to me and ask for a show, and I could use my hands and the music to give them a few minutes of feeling like they're in space, then get a sweaty hug from this drunk stranger I'll never see again. It's been really good for my social anxiety and fear of rejection to have the power to dance for a stranger and make them super happy. It wasn't until I found this scene that I even put it together that I'm actually an extrovert, just a timid one, and that a lot of the mire of my brain when it's at its ugliest has shown up when I feel the most isolated. My brain will try to trick me into thinking I'd rather be by myself when the truth is I want to be noticed and to talk to people all night, but I'm insecure and scared they won't like me.