Congratulations for being together for 15 months! Take that as not only progress but accomplishment. Seeking a therapist asap for yourself because your partner is not. I know we want to tell our partners everything, but that is overwhelming to take in.

I struggle with it myself, 6 months in and ive had my first major bpd episode where i started resenting every part of them for a while. I have 3 tips for you; 1. If you struggle with trust issues/intrusive thoughts/etc, get yourself and your partner a bond touch. Its so worth it to be able to have them just a few bracelet touches away, and it immediately fixed all of my issues regarding trust 2. If you have episodes of not liking them like i described, focus on WHY youre feeling that way - and then share that sentiment with them. Explain whats going on in your head, explain whats frustrating you, and set boundaries regarding that to keep yourself in a good state of mind. Its also helped me to notice little out of character things i do during these episodes, so when i notice im getting paranoid about who theyre talking to i know im not in my baseline state of mind 3. If they happen to be your favorite person, try to split that favorite person feeling with multiple ppl. Associate them as a group, like the whole group if you FP. Ive found it immensely helpful with my dependency on them and its caused a lot less issues Also do make sure your partner understands bpd, and be available to answer any questions they may have. Communication is the most important thing i cannot stress this enough