I have felt this way too lately! The best resources I had to feel less afraid were my therapist and a naturalist doctor. Both are trained to see the body as a whole and not just a bunch of silo’d systems. Both can be expensive though, which is super hard. The other thing I did that helped was to write everything down in a spreadsheet so I could sort of track things and compartmentalize in a healthy way that made me feel more in control when I talked to doctor.

One thought pattern that helped me combat the psychological strain of catastrophizing about impending medical diagnoses is that I am dealing with those conditions already and giving them a name even if that name is scary is a good thing because knowledge is power once we know what’s going on there’s hope of managing or curing it and even if that’s not an option at least we have an answer and can stop searching for one

That is why I stopped searching.

Exactly what DogLover said. And I only search on conditions I know I have or my docs think (with high probability) I have. Then, until the diagnosis, I just play a troubleshooting game with my body. Like a puzzle! Soo many symptoms overlap. Protect your energy & your mental health. Find your community & friends that are compassionate & understanding & kind. Knowledge is power, but “with great power comes great responsibility.” Don’t go down that search engine rabbit hole if you don’t have to 😜