i got trichotillomania a few months ago in 2021 and i ripped out almost all my eyelashes out. some of my friends were concerned and asked me what happend to my eyelashes but i don’t trust them so i didn’t tell them why, one of my friends would ask me during class but so loud and kinda in a making fun of me type of way and another one of my friends would try to force me to tell her why which i didn’t feel comfortable telling her and i didn’t tell anyone why because that is a very sensitive topic to me and she would try to force me to tell her and she was like “you can genuinely trust me.” which i knew was a lie because before that she was so mean to me. when some of my eyelashes were gone it was very hard for me during school cause people would say stuff so i tried to grow them out and they are grown out which i am super happy about and proud of myself but it’s super tempting to just rip them all out but i’m trying not to do that cause when i didn’t have eyelashes that was a very hard time of my life and people were so judgmental and but i try to not pull them out sometimes i pull out 1 or 2 every few weeks but mostly i just touch them. like a lot. not during school but when i’m home i’m just touching my eyelashes. when i’m stressed i mostly just try to lay down and calm down, close my eyes and just think about the things and people that make me happy such as some of my friends, family and my cats, and my hobbies. (you don’t need to close your eyes if you don’t want to) i try to calm myself down and try not to think about the things i don’t want to think about and i become peaceful and i also drink water and try to take deep breaths in and out or i eat a snack and take a break from my phone i don’t talk to anyone about what i just typed not even my friends or family and not even my cats and i’ve never told anyone why i had trichotillomania and when i told my mom she got mad at me.