Some states will offer free assistance with mental health services I'd definitely google and see what yours offers

I also found exercising and just walking in nature helped me when I was med free.

I think just finding someone to talk with would help. I've been battling this for years and I can't find anyone who understands any of it. I'm always available to chat

Talk to your partner (or if you are no longer with them, a close friend) about your depression and how it is affecting you and your everyday life. Some people also recommend journaling. However, it is not for everyone. You don't always need a therapist, but having someone who you are able to properly communicate your depression with 100% without any judgment is super helpful. It's finding the medium for you that is difficult.