you could reach out in a copy paste message to all your friends and explain that you’re having a hard time, and will be slightly distant, but it a not personal. as far as grades go, do a similar thing with your teachers, send an email to each of them and explain that you’re having a hard time and need support. I’ve found that when you ask for help, you’re more likely to get help. Also communicating helps people understand what’s going on because we aren’t all mind-readers. If that’s overwhelming try baby steps. Make a small goals and try to focus on what’s most important for you, because even though school and friends are important, ultimately you are the priority

i would love to tell people but i'm scared they will judge me and it makes me so anxious talking abt my emotions

bomb is right. if it’s easier, maybe you could try to reach out with a meme or joke to soften the blow? there’s gotta be a niche for that lol on the more serious side, remember. you are doing the best you can. “your best” isn’t supposed to be how much you can do when you neglect yourself, feel miserable, or pour all your heart into working. “your best” is how much you do when you’re balancing both your health and your responsibilities. remind yourself that you are working at capacity. like stretching a muscle, eventually that capacity will expand, and it’ll be easier for you to balance your social life and your school life! please don’t go too far and stretch that muscle too quick, or you’ll injure yourself and only set yourself back. Rest is productive. Your body is telling you it can’t keep up! maybe let your friends know you’d like to take an AWOL week, where you aren’t obligated to talk to anyone. As for school, it does NOT last forever. I’m in the same boat with the grades issue, but again. You are doing *your best.* There’s little else you can do without putting yourself at risk. Give yourself permission to fail sometimes. Give yourself permission to get a shitty grade and focus on getting Ds and Cs if you can. Talk to your teachers about reducing your workload(there are e-mail templates for this online!) In the worst case scenario that you fail, you’ll have to take some credit recovery courses. Ive taken them and they’re annoying for sure, but a lot easier than the usual classes. You will be able to get through it. :) and that’s if EVERYTHING ELSE falls through!! Sorry for the long message. This really resonated with me. Good luck ❤️