I understand this so much. I feel like my life is already over and I haven't done anything yet. It's frustrating

None of my conditions are terminal but I do feel as though my body is gradually breaking down on me. I’m 33 but physically I feel like I’m 90 and I find it difficult to do physical activities that I know would be helpful. I’m exhausted and I do feel like my life is being significantly shortened by not only my conditions but the side effects of some of the treatments. Almost like I have to counteract the negative effects of medication with more medication, creating an endless cycle.

I’ve gotten sick (sometimes very sick) way more times than I ever should for my age. I’ve had chronic inflammatory conditions for over 5 years now. I’m so fatigued and in pain from so little that I feel like any second now some form of cancer or illness is going to take me and I won’t even care.

I like to joke that I'm dying even though I know I'm not really. But I'm slowly watching my illness get worse and worse, and I can't do the things that I used to be able to, and it's terrifying, especially because there's nothing I can do about it. I'm never going to get better. And taking care of myself day after day gets exhausting. At this point I'm just kinda drifting along. You're not alone in this feeling ❤️

You are definitely not along.. I hate to say it but I think this often.. When the thought pops up I try my best to think positive.. it’s hard