First of all, welcome to this community :) I know how terrifying and frustrating these diagnoses can be, especially when you're not given all the information. You are not crazy for wanting answers. I want you to know that you are never alone in this fight. We are all here for you if you have questions or need support :) Second, it is 100% logical to do your own research. Because I'm a young, my doctors treated me like I was 2 and gave little to no explanation of what my meds do and what my treatment plan is. The best thing you can do right now is educate yourself. Make sure you're getting information from trusted sources so you are properly informed.

It's definitely normal to look for information about what you might expect to experience and why when you're given a new diagnosis especially if you weren't told anything about it to begin with. Generally it's considered smart to do your own research both because its possible a doctor's information isn't 100% accurate or omits some potentially important information and because it's possible to find at least some coping mechanisms and simple treatments that can help symptom management. It can also be important for you to talk to others with the condition who can help better identify symptoms, share tips, give reviews of medication and other treatment, and talk about all the other topics this app was created to help platform lol