YES!!! First dose of Vyvanse and around 6pm I stopped to try to figure out what was differentāsomething was off (alexithymia problems) and i realised it was the first morning I woke up and didn't regret it in memory.
The CONSTANT clenching of my jaw and gritting down on my teeth over every emotion and thought stopped (and I immediately realized how bad the problem was and how many teeth I've cracked and how badly it actually hurts all the time that I've been ignoring)
I'm going to sleep on a schedule for the first time in over 20 years (usually slept 4 nights/wk avg, now i sleep 6-8hrs/night!)
And yknowābeing able to think clearly and set to tasks again is like having my old life back.
I will say, as fair warningā
What was a life-changing molecule, my body processed down to complete indifference by day five. I had no sweats, no appetite issue, had some depressive spirals, couldn't think straight, got none of my to-do list done, and had a generally terrible night. Then I got anxiety because of this and feeling like yet another good thing or success was taken from me.
A close friend with ADHD-ASD reassured me that this is what's supposed to happen, that if your body adapts and begins to process it normally and stops the sweating and you can feel hunger through the pills, as long as you aren't having breakthrough symptoms then it has kind of normalized things for you. But if someone issues or lack of clear head space come back ("break-through" the meds) then it's simply time to let your doctor know and titrate!
I went from 20ā30ā40ā50 and I think 60 or 70 might be my key. Lucky, because "they" just adjusted the allowance to 70mg total, I guess /=
But I can drink coffee and stuff on top of it and that definitely helps too!
Either way, not wishing I could rejoin the Void and having the motivation to do... Anything... is an absolutely wonderful thing. I was at rock-bottom, so, if this didn't work, wellāit did! šā¾ļøš