Good Morning! I had a heart attack May 2020. Had 4 stents put in. December 2020 had ICD placed. February 2021 had a left/right heart cath. EF was 15%. Told to take my pick of the 3 cities in the state I am in for the heart transplant. Moved 863 miles to the city that I picked because I had family near by (4 hours away from transplant hospital). March 1, 2021 after being in the hospital for 12 days of tests, procedures, surgery...I was placed on the transplant list. I also am end stage. Every 3 months I travel 4 hours to see the transplant team and update procedures. I stay in a hotel when I am there 1-2 days that is across from the hospital. I am trying to keep a positive attitude. I get up every morning and do what I can. Get tired real fast. My husband has been a trooper helping around the house. We are now in the process of selling our home and to buy something where we are. We bought a van and having it converted for the wheelchair. I think what makes it hard is that we were active with friends, family (where we lived), hobbies, etc, and when this happened with me...all of that went away. So we basically only have each other. We leave our house here for appointments, pharmacy, groceries, and sometimes just to take a ride.. Do you get out of the house? Don't be afraid of the best. The ICD that I have has never fully charged on me. I do have some activity but the times have been less than 15 seconds they said and I don't feel anything. I follow the doctors orders (meds, diet, chair exercises) to the T. I watch alot of youtube comedians in order to have laughter in my life. I'm here for you also. We may not be at the same stage like you said but we at least can support each other. I basically have decided that I have placed everything in God's hands. I take it one day at a time. Find the laughter...it does help. Have a great day!