That’s definitely a rough place to be at. I had no idea I had HSV2 until I went to my yearly gyno appointment. I approached the two partners I could have gotten it from, both claimed they were negative and either blocked me or were too mean to deal with. The guy I’m seeing now and I had only been together 4 months when I found out. Thankfully I hadn’t passed it to him. It’s a LOT to take in… they aren’t kidding when they say it messes with your mental health way more than your physical.