I don’t hate my body or feel like it’s me against my body. It’s more of I’m afraid to get up because idk if my legs will hold me. I’m afraid to sit on the floor to play with my puppy because idk if I will be able to get back up. I’m afraid to make plans for next week because idk how much pain I’ll be in or how much energy I’ll have. I just don’t trust my body to do the physical tasks I ask it to do.

For so long it couldn’t do those tasks but now usually it can I’m just afraid

I’ve just learned to come to terms with my conditions. I’m trying my best to power through the constant pain every day. But I definitely feel ya about being mad at your body.

I can totally relate with all of this. It's definitely hard. For a long time I felt like it was my brain and body were constantly in total disagreement but now even my brain is not working well. I just try doing what I can. I do still find I don't like going in public bc my wc is only for inside and I don't like to depend on other places to have one. I fall alot and am paranoid of falling in public..