In my personal experience, it's both difficult but somewhat rewarding. I have certain qualities that I probably wouldn't have if I wasn't autistic. For example, I feel more observant of my surroundings and of others. It helps guide me in life and allows me to think through situations in ways others can't. But it also makes communication difficult as I struggle from time to time with speaking my mind

Its like being in the backseat of a bus and a street has a pothole and you feel the bump of the pothole.

It just hurts not being able to do certain things without doing something else or not doing it at all

It hurts having people baby you once they know, it hurts not being able to do certain things, similar to being undiagnosed. Most people point out that you have symptoms of it they won't let it go and you still have the same struggles when you're undiagnosed. When I got diagnosed I finally felt closure and understanding but it's really affected my life because I can't get anything to transition medically I can just socially transition (trans male). Sucks ig :/)