Hi there.. I’m new too this site could not put all meds ie fentanyl down or illness as it was a tad upsetting my main problem is the the never ending struggle of pain & having my life ripped away from me I know there must be many people that I have lived a longer with all the pain but I can not understand 😢 I do hope you can give me some insight. I am a ex marathon runner and hold down a job with HR officer I turned 50 and it just all happened… then was medically retired from a job at held for 31 years. I know there are so many people like this out there, I have to rely on carers and people reminders. I cannot leave the house alone and I need this New Year to find peace with it learn to live with it and try not to give up …..Sharon