It feels like an extra consideration I have to take into effect for everything. Will I feel well enough to work at my best, start this project, go to this place or gathering? It's tiring and frustrating.

I tend to always look at the ground when I’m in public cause I’m too nervous to get close to people or looking people in the eyes. It takes away my ability to socialize with others honestly. I pick at my skin a lot too due to it and it’s become a problem cause I do it to the point where I bleed. It just is really frustrating living with such severe anxiety, benzos have not worked for me. Even xanax unfortunately.

Sometimes I just won't be in the mood to leave my apartment. Too much sensory.

Usually, I tend to avoid places that overstimulate me, like loud places and a lot of crowds. It is definitely frustrating because while I may have autism, I also tend to panic, shut down and isolate myself during these situations as well.