I just take my handful of pills every morning and suffer through my miserable existence. Nothing makes any of it easier. I just haven't figured out how to give up and come to terms with the fact that my life is garbage, and the only way things will ever change is if they get worse.

honestly connecting with my community and talking to people going through the same (or similar) things has been the best thing for me learning to live with everything also learned a lot about how to navigate my care and also about my conditions and treatments from connecting with others and that’s been really helpful when managing my care

Sure, if you can even connect with anyone. When you're someone like me who has no money, can't work, and has no source of income whatsoever, going out and seeing people isn't an option. And no one will come to you, because they either don't have time, or have other things they'd rather do/other people they'd rather see. Texting and messaging is a no-go too. These days, no one ever texts anymore. And let's be honest the concept of talking on phone is ancient history to today's generations. So basically, no one ever talks to eachother, and you'll never get to see anyone unless you have an EXTREMELY well paying job that leaves you with a fuck ton of free time and disposable income.

Go ahead and call me negative. Call me a pessimist. Hell, call me an asshole, a prick, a piece of shit. I don't care, cause you'd be right. But I'll tell you the same thing I tell my family, my friends, my shrink, everyone really.... I'll stop seeing life, the world, people, and existence itself in such a horrible way as soon as I see a single fucking reason to feel otherwise.

I challenge anyone to convince me that life isn't pointless and not worth living.