I find that meds have to be tailored to the individual. It's a bit of a crap shoot to find what works. Talk therapy is very helpful for most people. Again, find what works for you.

Good luck! 🙏

Meds are very person specific. I have a different combo of diagnoses than you so my meds probably wouldn’t work. I wish you the best in finding what works though 💜 you’ll get there eventually 🤩

❤️ thank you

I found that trauma therapy was more helpful for me than just talk therapy. Obviously not right for everyone but it helped me understand my anger and what tiggers me. So I don't through myself into an episode.

update to this post: I'm now on 25mg Hydroxyzine so i can actually sleep and not be up for 12 to 18 hours with not even a nap. and when i do sleep- all there is is trauma and flashbacks and i happen to be an extremely vivid dreamer. so, when i wake up- I'm not sure if i am still dreaming or not. i can smell and taste and give such detail sometimes it's scary.

night terrors suck. Trauma therapy can help. It may also help to try to learn directed dreaming. With practice, it may get easier to get out of the trauma dreams without waking in terror.

thanks to everyone for their input and suggestions to help me/guide me