Yes. I miss the connection to the magic in the world. I miss the Otherbeings. They were my best friends. I miss feeling really connected to the world, not outside it looking in. I feel like a pretend human playing catch-up instead, if that makes sense.

🙌this probably isn't the healthiest way, but tabletop roleplay games like Dungeons and Dragons and also wargaming like Warhammer help me. It's the escapism, like with you and TV shows. You wouldn't be the odd one out either especially with D&D being neuroatypical, I have yet to encounter a neurotypical D&Der! I like those activities because it's more interactive than looking at a screen and you are in a social group by definition because you need other players even if you are playing via an online platform.