Same I don’t like medication a lot so last resort was to get back on my medication soon as possible cause my depression got worse

I’m on meds, but honestly, I still feel deeply depressed at times. I’ve had to accept that the feelings are a part of who I am and it sucks but I have to manage it. I have found listening to guided meditations to be helpful. They don’t take it away entirely, but they can help un-trigger me or help me sleep. I usually pick ones that are aligned with whatever seems to be bothering me. I use head phones and cover my eyes with a mask and also use lavender oil to kind of transport myself into a different mood. Not a cure, but a management tool that I’ve been able to use to shift a mood.