I think it might be I get that a lot as well but I'm not an expert so I don't entirely know

I feel like this is normal, I experienced this and so does most of my friend group that has PTSD related issues. Even those without PTSD issues will experience random memory and dream flashbacks throughout their life when it's not particularly negative related. I don't know for sure though, don't take me as an authority on the matter.

Thanks guys. It's a bit strange because it's not negative most of the time, and it's triggered by the tiniest things. I read it might be that I'm coming out of flight and fight mode....who knows. I know people get memories coming back but this is constant, all day long sometimes.

Yeah, I get that especially around the mundane stuff in my life that loosely adjacent to the traumatic events. I tend to go over those adjacent memories a lot like my brain is holding me hostage while it's ruminating. I think, after therapy, I do it because I want a reason WHY and HOW for the trauma but of course there isn't a good answer to those. Dunno if you relate but that's how it's been for me personally. After treatment I get why I have these kind of memories stuck on repeat in my head but I still can't really turn it off sort of just have to figure out how to live with it. But I didn't get diagnosis and treatment until four years after the traumatic events! All that time not healing has made things harder.

It sounds like you might have DID or BPD. have you gotten to a place in your life that you feel safe?

I think you all need to talk to a therapist about DID and/or BPD but also do some research on them so you all are prepared for the therapist. Also they might hide for a bit since I brought it up if you are a system but no worries they will come back.

DID is also something I looked into but I don't feel as though I have 2 distinct personalities.