I was diagnosed with OCD by my psychiatrist not that long ago and have been paying attention to the symptoms I have. This has also lead me to realize some things that aren’t normal but I’m not sure if they are OCD related either. They seem like they could be schizophrenia related but I’m not sure. I would be infinitely grateful if someone would read through what I have experienced and tell me what they think! I’ve been paranoid and delusional my whole life. Some of my first memories are of these things. From my earliest memories to around 7th grade I was EXTREMELY paranoid and delusional. I have a million examples but I don’t need to get into details right now. When I was very young I was quite vocal about those things because I didn’t realize that it was atypical. As if gotten older, those things have evolved into different fears and delusions. For most of my life I’ve also experienced what seems to me like a mix of maladaptive daydreaming and delusions. I end up convincing myself that I’m from another world and being watched or followed by those from it. And I would daydream about returning to the world I was from. My delusions aren’t as severe as they have been at the moment, but I have been able to recognize that for the past few years I’ve been experiencing olfactory hallucinations, tactile hallucinations, and what I think are simple visual hallucinations. Additionally, I quite often feel disconnected from reality in some way I can’t put my finger on. I’ve also been able to look back at times and identify episodes of disassociation and derealization. In the more recent years of my life I have also struggled with very bad episodes of depression. These are the times when the symptoms seems to manifest and worsen the most. But, I’m currently in a decent place so, it’s hard to identify everything I’ve experienced. In these times I know I experience depression, self isolation, feeling of impending doom, trouble with memory (and often struggle to remember the episode after it has passed), abolition, decreased motivation, decreased sense or purpose, extremely blurry mind, mirrored self misidentification, and anhedonia. I know there is other things I’m not able to recall at the moment, but I very much appreciate any help in figuring out what this may be.