Trying to be social is not easy but I work in customer service so I talk to a lot of people. It is not that bad

I get it and understand completely. I remember my first jobs, how anxious they made me, and how overestimated I became when I couldnt handle it. I've had breakdowns at work because of it. Perhaps finding interest groups might be helpful for you. That way you're talking to people that are like you or like the same things as you, and then you'll be sure to feel less awkward when you have something in common. That's how I started, and I built up overtime from there! Good luck, I believe in you !!