This isn't meant to be a rude question, but doesn't anemia have something to do with your blood? How would that cause the issues you're having? If you think you have OCD, I'd recommend finding a specialist

I feel like I'm being touched sometimes and its called tactile hallucinations wich can be caused by heavy drug use schizophrenia bipolar and anemia

So I'm unsure

I fear if I don't do this I'll die like drinking water after every meal

Think every pain or symptom means I'm dying

Or have a terminal illness

I shut all my doors and closet and shower door at night cause I feel like I'm being watched

I very rarely eat candy or fast food in fear of diabetes

I think my birds will die somehow by stuff I've done like spray lavender on pillow even thought lavender isn't harmful to birds

I couldn't enjoy Thanksgiving cause I feared I would die if I feel asleep and constantly checked my heart heart

This sounds like magical thinking OCD to me. OCD has different themes, if you don't know. Magical thinking OCD is thinking that something terrible will happen if you don't take a specific action. For example, "my entire family will die if I don't drive around the block at least 2 times" or "if I eat this specific food, it might give me cancer"

Magical thinking sounds like someone would say in the medieval times at trial🤣

I also have autism and my therapist is oh this is just autism 🤣

I just thought autism was being bad at social interaction having wack sensory issues and being terrible at emotions 🤣

I mean I can't tell if this is just my autism or it's something else

I know there similar but how can you tell the difference

With OCD, you feel like you HAVE to do something. If you don't do it, it feels like something terrible will happen. You get stuck in an endless loop of "my family will die if I don't drive around the block 2 times". In this example, driving around the block 2 times would be called a compulsion. Doing compulsions provides temporary relief from the anxiety and fear, but the intrusive thoughts that something terrible might happen will always come back and then the cycle repeats itself. Intrusive thought > compulsion(s) > temporary relief > intrusive thought > repeat

An easy autism symptom is not knowing if people are joking or not then getting mad or offended 🤣

But does autism cause intrusive thoughts?

Yeah but how do people love with them There's also images included ive let them happen I don't care to acknowledge them but still there there I want a calm brain not gore

Live

Like when I was cutting up vegetables I kept having an image in my mind of chopped off bloody fingers

And then went to use the blender and my brain was like what would happen if you stuck you hand in there and I had an image of mangled hand and then it's like would the bone be removed or would it still be there how much skin and tendon would be removed and it keeps going on

You live with them by getting used to them. You don't try to get rid of them, you let them stay for as long as they want without doing compulsions. If your brain goes "am I a bad person?" "do I want to hurt people?" etc your response should be something like "maybe, maybe not." To live with OCD is to get used to uncertainty

🙏I already am used to them I've accepted that this is my life now ☺️

This is my life and when I'm 21 I'll just do weed again

Just one more year

One more year and I'll be home free

Well, if you're already used to them and they aren't taking control of your life, it might not be OCD

It has taken control of my life

I'm just used to at this point I'll never have more than a few hour a day of peace and that's my routine

I've accepted my fate

Everything will be fine once I can get my hands on weed

You can have peace. That's why you have to respond to the thoughts like you don't care. You are the boss

I already have it's been a year and nothing has happened

I just need to wait or I can make a fake license

Or better yet have someone else get it for me

It's like bliss 🤗