I don't think I ever felt fear. Not until I dated an abusive alcoholic that is, but even now that fear is person-to-person based. I do feel it's a completely realistic fear, though. Alcohol is a toxin. It's not beneficial to consume & the effects people "like" are quite literally a bodily response to consuming a toxin. You lose control of your functions -- and that in itself is scary. The most embarrassing moments in my life (& likely in many others) are due to alcohol consumption. You are in a position to be taken advantage of by others & to act completely out of character for yourself. Such a logical fear...not wanting to lose that control - of your choices, of your bodily functions, ability to walk, talk, and communicate. Worth addressing if you think it's repressed trauma, or possibly your ability to trust how safe you are (be that of actions or judgments) around who you're drinking around. Otherwise, don't feel weird for it 🖤 Drinking is not necessary nor helpful, regardless of the societal pressure.

I understand why you would be scared I’m not just allergic to alcohol but I’m also scared of it because I’m afraid it will land me in the hospital

Something I've noticed is that although I don't have trauma related to alcohol, it can be stressful at times. I think it has more to do with losing control of ourselves than the alcohol itself. I don't really drink or smoke like I used to because I don't like not being able to control my body and mind. The thought of not being able to protect myself, anticipate my environment, behave the way I want to, etc, is what's scary for me. I dont dislike drinking, but I also don't need it. Some of my friends frequent bars in the area for events and I usually don't drink anymore. It's offered to me, but I really only drink on special occasions where I feel safe/am in a familiar place with people I trust. It just creates a level of vulnerability I don't like. And its okay to not enjoy being under the influence, it's not for everyone. There's nothing wrong with you for that. Truthfully, it shouldn't be anything more than recreational for anyone unless they are suffering from an addiction anyway, and recreational activities are subjective to the user. You dont have to feel like the odd one out for not enjoying it. ♡

You're not alone, but I'm not so scared of alcohol I'm scared of what it does to people growing up where my father drank all the time it took a toll. Like my husband use to love partying but all that stopped when he realized what it did to me like if anyone around me is drinking I get really tense and if I'm in a bad place already I'll have flashbacks. Just surround yourself with people like you who don't like drinking it'll help a lot!

I'm not afraid of alcohol, but I'm definitely not a fan of it. I just don't care for the way that it makes me feel, and many people in my family have struggled with alcoholism. I can understand why getting drunk would be concerning though, especially if you have CPTSD. To me it looks like this: you had to be on your toes 24/7 in order to just survive. Alcohol inherently slows down your reaction time and makes it more difficult for you to respond to a potential emergency. Not only that, but if the potential danger was a specific person, that person may try to take advantage of your inebriated state. To make the summary nice and quick, I'm not personally afraid of alcohol, but I understand why someone would be and you are completely valid in being afraid of it.