THIS! I’ve actually been diagnosed with PTSD partly bc of early childhood trauma and partly bc I’m constantly getting hospitalized, having bad health episodes, getting a new illness, etc. and it’s terrifying! People say trauma and obstacles make us stronger, but I feel it has just made me weaker and more sensitive. When minor things that go wrong, I immediately jump to “I’m going to be hospitalized again, my health is so out of hand! I’m going to die young! I’m having a relapse! When it’s really just a virus. I’ll feel the symptoms as much worse than they are out of fear. It’s bc the body keeps score. Even if we’re not having an emotional flashback with words and images, our body is remembering and reliving our past experiences