Sometimes I do, but I have to tell myself that it makes me functional & try to love myself (I’m learning that now) 💕

I feel that, almost as if I am a lost cause. I have to remind myself that 3.4 million people in the US are on antidepressants and they are not a lost cause so I should not put myself in the hopeless category.

As long as they keep working then don't worry. My problem is that I will hit a "max" dosage and can't up the meds so then we start the process of new meds all over again.

Yeah, I typically feel pretty self conscious about beeding a dose increase, but I know long term it's for the best. I just try to keep in mind that the goal is health and happiness, not strict normality.

I getchu. I just had a dose increase too and I feel (very mild) embarrassment going to pick up my script bc the pharmacy has known me for like 15 years/same pharmacist/everyone knows my name (sadly) and I always feel like they are judging me when logically I know they are not, they're not even thinking twice about it/me. But like you, I don't think there is any shame necessary, doses are bound to change sometimes. But it's that nagging anxiety that always chimes in.

I haven’t gone thru that yet… but thats sounds so hard to go thru… like the fact that you need antidepressants already means that you should be supported and loved even if you need it to function…