hey, i just wanted to let you know i have the exact same thing. to a tee. i vent sometimes to my friends that i wish i could just ugly cry for a while. it's been forever since i last did that and i can't trigger myself to cry at all now. it sucks. i'm like... surprised-glad that there's someone else out there who's experiencing this, too. you're not alone in this, and if you ever want to talk about it please message me. sending hugs, OP ♡